Well it has been about a year since I blogged here regularly. I have to admit that I had some difficult time mentally and emotionally from about August through February, but I have slowly been feeling more like myself over the past several months. Over the fall and winter I did not sew anything, or read much of anything, or listen to any audiobooks, or play any games, so I really had nothing to blog about. I kept busy with the kids and the house, but my only outlet at all was writing. By Christmas, when I was writing a family update letter for my friends and relatives I described all the cool things that everyone had been up to that year...but I couldn't think of a single nice thing to say about myself. It was hard to articulate, but I didn't feel like me. I cleaned my house and fed my kids and did what was required, but I had no desire to do anything beyond that. I refused to leave my house (except for food) and I spent all of my free time at home on my laptop writing.
Fortunately my family convinced me to get help and now I am feeling much more like myself. I think a lot of people had a really tough time during covid--all of my mom friends have had similar experiences. I know a lot of people are still struggling with anxiety surrounding illness and being around people. I hung on for a year and a half, but I think after August I just kinda broke and I couldn't do it any more.
It took a lot of small steps to get back to feeling like myself. In January my karate school opened back up (with a limited schedule) and I was able to get some much-needed exercise and see so many of my friends I hadn't met with in almost two years. At home G helped to get my sewing room in working order, clearing out a lot of the clutter from moving that had stacked up in there. In May I had my sewing machine repaired, and I have been putting it to good use sewing and crafting and listening to audiobooks. I am glad that I haven't dropped my daily writing habit, (I posted over 100,000 words on Archive of our Own since January this year) however, and I am very grateful to the fandom friends I have made on discord for being there when things were rough.
So all of this is to say: I want to start blogging again. Maybe not as regularly as before, but I do want to document my projects and update my quilt and costume galleries.
I hope you all have fared well over the past year. I look forward to sharing my crafts again!
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